It's been almost 11 months since this adoption process started, and we are so far from bringing our children home. Will that day ever come? It's surreal. When I was pregnant, it was 9 months from conception till delivery. This conception in our hearts was so long ago, and it will be far greater than 9 months till delivery of our children. There's no big belly to show for it. No baby shower, no listening to a heartbeat, no doctor visits.
Our friend, Brandy, shared a quote this week in our group and on her blog, and it is so true:
"The English language lacks the words to mourn an absence. For the loss of a parent, grandparent, spouse, child or friend, we have all manner of words and phrases, some helpful some not. Still we are conditioned to say something, even if it is only “I’m sorry for your loss.” But for an absence, for someone who was never there at all, we are wordless to capture that particular emptiness. For those who deeply want children and are denied them, those missing babies hover like silent ephemeral shadows over their lives. Who can describe the feel of a tiny hand that is never held?"
- Laura Bush
Just pray God will sustain us.
Dear Father, Thank you for the 3 children you have blessed us with so far. They are precious. Be with the children that are out there that are ours that we haven't met yet. You know them and you know their hardships and fears. Take care of them. Help them to wait for us just as we are waiting for them. You are in control, Father, and we praise you in all things.